"Self-idolatry Most desirable Do for yourself Priority Worship of self Placed before others Crush all those Who hold you back" The voices they whisper In a dark spot in your head "See what can be yours Everything Plenty of riches You could be king Plenty of diamonds Plenty of pearls Plenty of opioids Plenty of girls" A deception avoided by very few The voices they whisper: "Please suffer with us We're alone down here Come suffer with us" Another hook and chain Embedded in the soul By the weight of every vice They’re dragging you below The greatest threat to me Is that which I cannot see Whispering poison into my soul For mercy I pray and plead

With thirst for greater power Greedy for something more I long to transcend man For myself I now abhor Through all my hurt I want one thing To overpower everyone To reject a basic mortal body The beast and me now one Granted my great power By a source I shouldn’t trust What should have fulfilled me Only amplified my bloodlust Eyes reflect and glow As I prowl into the night Embrace the entity of nightmares In carnage I delight Now this is what it's like To succumb fully to the flesh The beast’s hunger outweighs my judgment As I grant the innocent gruesome deaths What have I done? What have I become? My hatred and my hunger Left a trail of innocent blood Of myself I am now scared Of me they all beware I reflect on what I've done Sorrow grips my blackened heart Lock me up and lose the key I am my own worst enemy I tasted blood and I want more My wicked flesh I now abhor Pain has been poured into me and now I pour it out I lusted for blood and now I repent Why God do I slaughter the innocent? My hate has made a killer of me Forgive me father, I now plea I lusted for blood and now I repent Why God do I slaughter the innocent? My hate for one made me a killer of all Into evil I quickly fall

You will suffer and you will suffer without me Spew your lies in the corners of my tortured mind Declare that I’m worth nothing Your forked tongue licking away my peace But I know the source for more The father of lies, I rebuke thee I am not a trophy for your collection I am not another damned soul I may not be stronger And I may not be smarter But mark my words I know one who is I wish I could put to words How mighty and loving my God is That he can take my menacing oppressor And cast him to flames The fallen’s rage is relentless For if he must fall he will take as many as possible with him They proclaim that God is dead As he lives eternally The God of life and all power His triumph forever

Conflict, Struggles, Strife, Tribulation Another phase of sorrow gripping hold of my life The devil and his demons laugh as I endure great strife But there’s one thing that I know Through this cruel world he’ll guide me Though it batters me on the daily He has risen far above it all For he has said to be of good cheer Through my tribulations This world brings me suffering But I shall not fear for he has conquered the world For when there is darkness in my life I can rest assured he’ll shed his light All my problems will come to pass I will soon be at peace at last Laugh in the face of this evil-ran domain Through every struggle, through all the pain Praise to the savior who conquered this all This world may be doomed but I won’t fall Came forth from the Father Conquered the world Returned to the Father But we’ll lament no more The prince of this world now stands condemned Time to face divine judgment To stand with Christ is not to fall For he has conquered it all

(Christ, Holy ruler of all Deliverer of vengeance which quenches my rage Whose love for me is surpassed by none Rider of the white horse, once crucified by his own will Now ruling from the right hand of the almighty and eternal Father Please grant me this day strength and blessings So I may face temptation and evil And triumph through your guidance Humble me when I boast and lift me when I sink Oh gracious God of all existence And protect and deliver my brothers and sisters as well as myself From the worldly plagues of evil See to it that your prophecies are fulfilled as well as your will And lock away and cast our demonic enemies into eternal punishment Amen) Since before the beginning of all things The Father had planned out our existence He gave us an alternate option So our love him for him may be more genuine as a choice And his all powerful voice Commanded the universe into existence For the wages of sin is death Imperfect we needed a lamb Spilled was the blood of God in the flesh So that we aren’t doomed to be damned First he arrived in human flesh But will return with eyes like a flame All powerful upon a pure white horse Before him all evil be slain The word of Almighty like a double edged sword Erupting from his holy lips He perished the first time willingly Suffering he gave us this Eternal salvation from our imperfect ways From the sin that taints our souls Joined into his holy communion As he sits upon the Father’s throne I can’t fathom the love he has for a wretched soul like mine My very flesh is his enemy, I don’t deserve this blessed life No weapon I own compares to his might who vanquished legions from his sight Without him I’ll always be wicked, nothing I do can make me right How wicked are we that we would kill the only perfect man? His blood he spilled for me, before he ascended to the Father’s right hand Unfathomable it truly is that the God who created everything Would love and save a disgusting person like me Why would the Creator of the sun and moon and stars love me?

My pathway to a life with Him Shrouded in darkness and hate “How could I follow the faith of the Christians?” Sealing my hellbound fate My eyes saw red and I lusted for blood To the pure I was so unkind Consumed with hate for God’s people Like him who spent three days blind There are many out for the blood of God’s people But I didn’t wish to rot with the world I no longer long for Earthly cliques To be accepted in some crowd My home is in heaven with my beloved God Where he will grant me a crown The heart of a murderer Once a hater of the Christians I warred with the almighty And he won every time He never longed to be my enemy But I cursed him and I mocked him My legs whipped out from under me Humbled I began to see I was as Saul And long to be like Paul I would give my life For Christ who died for me I was as Saul And long to be like Paul I would gladly die Before I reject Christ I donned the symbols of Satan On my own road to Damascus But when pride left my rotten heart The truth revealed himself from heaven

Blessed virgin, chosen by the Father to carry the Son of Man What happened on this night no mortal can ever understand Newly born he dwelled in the dirt and hay To ascend to the throne of God the Father someday Mary, did you know that your son would one day rise from the dead? You birthed the savior of all mankind And none will kill the Son of Man And none will break my faith in him Blessed Mother of God The chosen lady to birth the Messiah He will drown all sin in blood And ascend to the throne above all things The man you birthed is more than man Unkillable, he laid down his life To be our advocate in heaven One day he will claim his bride He’ll slay the serpent, defeat death, and conquer the whole world Glory to the King of all things